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from is forgiven!
Confession
Dear God, I hate this sin. I hate the shame. It feels so terrible away from You. I don't want to live like this anymore. Please remove this lust from my life. Oh Lord I pray, please change my life.
can't say from middle east is forgiven!
last chance
this is the last place where im going to try to find help , i have a problem like the 10000 ppl here with porn , if you cant give me one last solution ... i dont know what i will do
can't say from middle east is forgiven!
last chance
this is the last place where im going to try to find help , i have a problem like the 10000 ppl here with porn , if you cant give me one last solution ... i dont know what i will do
Tomas from Burnet is forgiven!
forgive me
i wanna run n2 the arms of Jesus again i miss everything about him. his power, his grace, his forgiveness.... i hate living a life without him. but i know hes with me my trust is n him... i love u dad
leanne from chillicothe is forgiven!
pillar saved my life
My name is leanne I had a lot of problems when I was a teenager.Eventhough I went to church my whole life and i didnt act like it mattered but when I was 16 I went to the youth group at my church.That day changed my life forever they was playing pillars "bring me down" it related to my life the devil was tring to bring me down so I would live my life completly wrong. me and my family argued a lot and it got crazy.One day I asked my mom to buy me a pillar cd and since then I gave birth to my beautifull daught...
leanne from chillicothe is forgiven!
pillar saved my life
My name is leanne I had a lot of problems when I was a teenager.Eventhough I went to church my whole life and i didnt act like it mattered but when I was 16 I went to the youth group at my church.That day changed my life forever they was playing pillars "bring me down" it related to my life the devil was tring to bring me down so I would live my life completly wrong. me and my family argued a lot and it got crazy.One day I asked my mom to buy me a pillar cd and since then I gave birth to my beautifull daught...
EC from SP Brazil is forgiven!
Addict
Im a person that was raised in the church, but am addicted to pornography, masturbation, homosexuality, and also can't let go of partying and drinking cause I feel like I would waste my youth away if i dont party and stuff. I really just want to have my life changed by God, and he knows that. Please pray for me and for my transformation and encounter with Jesus. God Bless.
marc from Snowflake is forgiven!
Addiction, Depression, Anger, Guilt
All my life I have always been depressed. I felt like I was good for nothing. I had no friends, no money,, nothing. I turned to porn, and it didn't help much. But I kept turning back to it. Well I'm done with it! I can't turn my back on God any longer. I can't live like this because it just simply isn't who I am. I don't want to live wishing I was dead. I've tried to kill myself several times, but I just can't. I want to want God more than anything else. For anybody who's out there, please pray for me! I ne...
marc from Snowflake is forgiven!
Addiction, Depression, Anger, Guilt
All my life I have always been depressed. I felt like I was good for nothing. I had no friends, no money,, nothing. I turned to porn, and it didn't help much. But I kept turning back to it. Well I'm done with it! I can't turn my back on God any longer. I can't live like this because it just simply isn't who I am. I don't want to live wishing I was dead. I've tried to kill myself several times, but I just can't. I want to want God more than anything else. For anybody who's out there, please pray for me! I ne...
Joe from Queens,NY is forgiven!
Anger And Hate
I'm married to my best friend and I love her very much and I have a wonderful son whom I adore.My problem is ANGER AND HATE towards everything in general I don't know why I feel this way but I ask God to take this away from me,I attend a great Bible based church but it seems like everyday I get worse and I'm tired of it,Iwant to be free of this Anger and Hatred that tries to control me.I want to change and I know God will help me go thru this time in my life. God Bless and Thank you for your prayers..
from Minneapolis is forgiven!
Addiction
I'm addicted to masterbation.... there I said it. Finally! I've been denying the fact that I have a problem for the past year. I've been trying to stop all on my own power, just to prove to myself that I can do it by myself, so I'm not addicted. But I keep falling after about 2 weeks, and go back to my same old ways. God, I pray that you would consume me and help me to kick this filthy habit once and for all!
Josh from Kingston, Ont, Canada is forgiven!
Forgiven by You, but not her.
God, it's been almost a year now - a year since i confessed to my gf that i cheated on her with another. I know i have done wrong, and i have been turning my life around since - and i have given my sin up to you - i know i am forgiven. But she has not. She still deals with the great sorrow of my abuse of her trust. She and I are still together - but struggling; the old me is weighing her down. Lord, please take the burden off her shoulders; help her feel like she is not alone, and that her and I ARE going to...
anonomous from Boston is forgiven!
prayer
please pray for me i am struggling with things and its not easy bein a teenager. please just pray for me to resist temptations and staing pure and right with God thank you guys for this thing im praying that ur band will make an impact for Christ u guys r awesome
K from Burnsville is forgiven!
STOP!
I just need to stop these lustful thoughts and break my addiction to pornography! Lord I need to be focused on you and you alone! Show me who you want me to be so I can further your kingdom. Clean my sins, make me white as snow!
Jared from Washington is forgiven!
Love
about a week ago the first girl that ive ever truly been in love with broke up with me. we had been having a long distance relationship, due to some financial hardships shes endured. i booked a vacation to come spend time with her for a week. 5 days before my flight left she broke up with me out of nowhere and ive been a wreck ever since. please god tell me that things will be ok, and please show me the way so i can move on in my life if thats what i need to do.
Cesy from Gilroy,Ca is forgiven!
Lust
Ive been having really bad thoughts lately. Jesus take it away:( Forgive Me!
Christopher from Bullhead is forgiven!
Sins of the Flesh
It is so hard to fight this sin because everywhere you look it's there,on the television,magazines radio and advertisements.What is so strange is that I have never had sex in my life but sometimes the thought of it pops in my head but I am so tired of the thought that I want to give it back to the devil inside my head and live pure as God wants me to because everything that he has taught me is so much more powerful and humbling.So I leave my Sins of the Flesh behind for the devil as the Lord will protect me ...
Kieran from West Sussex ENGLAND is forgiven!
Mr
Erm, your a good band an all but seriously, fuck off with the bible bashing brainwashing bull shit. Religion Creates wars, that is all Kieran
ERIC from PIKEVILLE is forgiven!
LUST
The thing i struggle with on a daily basis is lust... lust and impure thoughts of pornography go through my head quite often in a days time. GOD I please pray that you will forgive me and help me to be stong and to resist temptation. please help me be a better christian .....
ERIC from PIKEVILLE is forgiven!
LUST
The thing i struggle with on a daily basis is lust... lust and impure thoughts of pornography go through my head quite often in a days time. GOD I please pray that you will forgive me and help me to be stong and to resist temptation. please help me be a better christian .....
josh from eden nc is forgiven!
rebelion
i was 15 when i was at a private school and they got on me cause i wasnt listening to Christian music and they made me have my hair cut my mom was d8ing a wiccan at the time and they kept geting on me about my music i was listening to every thing from rock to death metal i spoke out agianst them there over doing it i told them i thought o well ill just turn wiccan i even said it to under my breath i nvr actually turned wiccan i woke up one nite with a dream i didnt no what it was about i thought my rebelion...
Josh from Saint Louis is forgiven!
flesh against me
I've been fighting with lust, selfishness, masturbation, and worrying alot. I confess my sin to God and you all. I'm going to keep moving forward in life, and im asking you all to keep me in prayer.
Josh from Saint Louis is forgiven!
Fighting my Flesh
Ever since the days of my youth it's been tough to walk right with God with all the temptations of this world. Forgive me for my selfishness,lust,and ungodly thoughts that hold me down. And help me to make war with sin for the rest of my life. Guys keep me in prayer.
E from Apopka is forgiven!
I have sinned
I keep watching dirty videos and masturbate to them and i try to stop but i cant stop and I hate those sin. Please give me the strength to break away from those sins once and for all and can you forgive me for the many times i sinned before.
E from Apopka is forgiven!
I have sinned
I keep watching dirty videos and masturbate to them and i try to stop but i cant stop and I hate those sin. Please give me the strength to break away from those sins once and for all and can you forgive me for the many times i sinned before.
Marie from Chattanooga is forgiven!
My Addiction - Being a Care-Taker
My grandmother raised three kids (one dying in the Navy). My mother and my aunt put men and drugs before us kids so my grandmother got custody of us (there's 4 of us). My grandfather became a drunk so it was left up to my grandmother to take of 2 farms (183 acres total), us kids, her parents that were dying, and my drunken grandfather. I always admired her because she was so resilient. Even now at 68, she can do just about anything. She had to learn because she had no choice. I thank God for her or I wouldn'...
from Kentucky is forgiven!
Save me from the sexual
I've had somewhere around 20 sexual partners in 8 years and seen about every type of pornography that's out there. I've been a Christian for the past 5 of those years. Father, help me. I can't fix myself. I need you.
Andrea from Illinois is forgiven!
Things of this world
Father forgive me. I can now feel the distance between us. I've been caught up in the things of this world, my focus hasn't been on you. I can feel the difference. I'm not my usual happy self and it's starting to scare me. Please guide me towards you and give me the strength to keep going.
Eduardo from são paulo - brazil is forgiven!
geração eleita
peace for all of the band ... oh I admire much your work and wondered if the band will come here to Brazil? God bless the lives of all great things!
Eduardo from são paulo - brazil is forgiven!
geração eleita
peace for all of the band ... oh I admire much your work and wondered if the band will come here to Brazil? God bless the lives of all great things!
victoria from west monoe, louisiana is forgiven!
lovin my life
i am lovin my life right know !!!!!! i am going to church camp for 3 weeks and i am going to see alot of my best friends and probaley my crush chase and he calls me his favorite girl and he is so sweet i just love him and i am praying for all the people who has love one that died and all the sex and alchol and drug aducits.and i saw pillar here in beauitiful west monroe at the nothing and everything tour with red ,the wedding ,and me in motion .love u pillar!!!!!!
AIDEN from CAIRNS, AUSTRALIA is forgiven!
Pride
Throughout the last couple of years I have been indulging myself in pride. If I cannot get things correct I try to find faults in others and if I cant I just GET SO ANGRY. I know that I have no reason for peide but I believe that I need some help from God and that I need someone praying for me. See, I'm too proud to even own it up to people I know or can talk to. Please people pray for me and allow me to lose this evil that has infected my life.
Jeffrey from Miramar is forgiven!
Gossip Hurts/ Love hurts
Secrets and regrets told me to open no matter where I am. I have been dishonest and disloyal to my friends and I've regret even after 2 months later. I hurt one of them by saying bad comments about them behind their back. She found out and never wanted to do anything with me anymore and hates me. I lied to someone I like in school and I never meant to hurt her. Someone was spreading she and I were dating which is not true and I couldn't get my facts straight. I don't know how she feels because we haven't tal...
Shaleena from Great Falls is forgiven!
Secrets and Regrets
In 2007 I lost my Mom, which obviously made me sad. In that sadness I made selfish decisions particularly with relationships. It came to a point where I ended making a decision that would change everything. My twin sister had made a friend with a guy and it was the first time she felt alive since our mom had passed away, well I went to visit her and ended letting myself fall for her friend, whom she had already told me she had a crush on. During the week I visited her I made more selfish decisions then I had...
jon from illinois is forgiven!
burdens be gone
Father God, forgive for the sins in my life. Lord, take my anger, my aggression, and my lustful thoughts. God, You have blessed me so much. You kept me alive in Iraq, You gave me a beautiful and loving wife, two beautiful kids, a home of my own, a good job, and the skills to be a good man. Yet I have failed so much by not coming to You. I cry to You God, save me from myself. Guide me to be the man You want me to be. Keep me safe from the temptations in this life. Let me be a living example of Your lo...
daniel from florence is forgiven!
comatose
comatose this is my sin it is being a Christian at church and not in the world i was trying to act ok and not let any one know about my out side life. so thats my sin
Andrea from is forgiven!
wow I keep on falling again and again
I have failed many times and I dont know why I just keep on doing it again and again. When I was young my grandpa sexualy molested me. My mom cheates on my dad in my face and I turned out to be a total diaster to everyone. I hated my life because nobody listened to me. I got addicted to sexual stuff since I was like around 8 years old. I couldnt stop it was really hard. I already knew God and I had turned away from him. I knew it wasnt the right thing to do but I had failed him so many times that I really di...
Preacher Man from Haw River is forgiven!
To all that struggle with Porn! READ THIS!!
To all that struggle with lust! READ THIS!! Lust is a everyday battle even as a man of God or a up and coming Pastor. Your flesh always wants to lust the desire will always be there in the FLESH! But you have a spirit that is strong!!! U must feed it everyday with the word and prayer and your Spirit will raise up and defeat your flesh and then some!!! Jesus said the flesh is weak but the Spirit is willing! Willing to over come it and WIN!!! Pray and get in the word. In the word God will speak to U. Show yo...
Sebastian from Queensland is forgiven!
just life
so all of these are great and it helps me to realize I'm not alone, though they're all mainly about porn. I feel bad for these guys, & I too have stuggled w/ the addiction. It's soooo hard to just "stop". there's so much more to it. it's like shooting up heroin or smoking cigs. you don't think about it, you just do it & feel betta aftawards. but do you really? I neva did. I always felt worse than before. always. I was saved from it. I knew Christ but we were just aquaintances. all of my friends (girls & guys...
Anonymous from FL is forgiven!
Geez
I've been dealing w/ massive heartache from friends. They're always w/ their boyfriends & it makes me feel that I'm not good enough to hang out w/ them. I had a ton of friends before I got serious about the Lord, then I realized that they weren't really my friends. I dropped everything I was doing to become closer to the Lord. Though all that is great, the friends thing made me bitter, and I was being a closet Christian. I would never deny Christ, I just never did anything about it. "Yeah, I'm a Christian" i...
Dustin from North Carolina is forgiven!
The Bear Trap
I struggle with an addiction of not porn or sex, but just lust in general. I have been a born again believer for a long time now, but for some reason God allows my foot to sometimes gets stuck in a bear trap so that when I move a have to carry it with me. It is even with me as I "Go ye therefore," so i go as a hypocryt. Luckily God is there to be my "crow-bar" at his will, and pull me out of the temporary separation. I realize that it is a problem, and I know the sloution. As a chrisrain I am called to a da...
Dustin from North Carolina is forgiven!
The Bear Trap
I struggle with an addiction of not porn or sex, but just lust in general. I have been a born again believer for a long time now, but for some reason God allows my foot to sometimes gets stuck in a bear trap so that when I move a have to carry it with me. It is even with me as I "Go ye therefore," so i go as a hypocryt. Luckily God is there to be my "crow-bar" at his will, and pull me out of the temporary separation. I realize that it is a problem, and I know the sloution. As a chrisrain I am called to a da...
Orlando from San Angelo, TX is forgiven!
No More
No more i say i'm tired of living like this with the sin of porn. I want to quit but i have become addicted to it. i feel like people around me will never look at me like they do if they know, now after seening so many confession about it i feel not alone, but happy that there are people around the world having the same problem as me.Thank you for having this confession and i pray that all like me will finally win the battle over porn and live in rjoce with are hevanly father our God. May he bless you all an...
Aiden from Cairns, Australia is forgiven!
Addiction
Dear Lord, I have been keeping a "dirty little secret" as the song goes. Porn, there i am telling somone else for the first time. I am a porn Addict and Lord, Please help me get over this addiction. YOu tell us to not keep any secrets from any brother or sister but i have been for agers. Lift this burden from me so that i may live anew in you Lord. Amen
Aiden from Cairns, Australia is forgiven!
How can we truly know
I sometime dont want to talk to God and try to find otherways to make my life feel better when i am down. I confess that I take my anger out on others when life is bad. I need to change my life because of the way I am starting to feel that life is not worth it with the bad things taking over the good stuff. thanks pillar for having this board to help people like me to re think about what life is all about. THANKS FROM AUSTRALIA
Mystery guy from Toronto is forgiven!
Porn, and Masturbation
God, I confess my sins of (Porn) and (Masturbation) to you Lord. (My Prayer) God cleans me of these sins, and help me to place these sins in your hands for good, take lust out of my life, and renew my mind from guilt and shame, please give me a clean slate, help me to start fresh in strengthening my relationship with you, God I'm calling out to you for help, please give me the strength to kick the habit of going back to the same sins, help me to walk in the newness of life that you gave me, give me the will ...
Lucifer from London is forgiven!
.......
i have been struggling my whole life with violence. it seems every day i feel the urge to hurt others. last month i killed my neighbors baby. i dont know if god can forgive me. i wish i didnt have this urge but so many people have died at my hands and i understand if i am doomed to an afterlife in hell. it feels like i feed off the pain and sufering of others. last year i was so over come that i kidnapped a young girl and raped and killed her in my house.
Lucifer from London is forgiven!
.......
i have been struggling my whole life with violence. it seems every day i feel the urge to hurt others. last month i killed my neighbors baby. i dont know if god can forgive me. i wish i didnt have this urge but so many people have died at my hands and i understand if i am doomed to an afterlife in hell. it feels like i feed off the pain and sufering of others. last year i was so over come that i kidnapped a young girl and raped and killed her in my house.
Aaron G. from Tulsa is forgiven!
Forever Fan
Noah, I was just thinking that I needed to share something with you I recently learned. I found out that my brother Ulises who you had met in the past, had listen to your music almost religiously for a good period of time, and that due to you guys songs he had found a great motivation in his walk with the Lord. I am sorry to inform you that this past Thursday he was involved in a fatal motorcycle accident and the funeral service will be held on Sunday Arkansas, and we will be playing nothing but Pil...
Mak from Hamilton, Ontario, Canada is forgiven!
new life
I hav struggled with pornography and masturbateion since i was probly about 11 or 12 years old. i hate both of these sins, i despise them with a burning passion, and yet i turn bac to them again and again and hav so up until this past year. this past year in june 09 i got baptized and since then my life has changed. i no christians use that sayin alot and i guess i really didnt realize wat they actualy meant when they said that, but i no now that when u truly accept God into ur life, u cant help but change e...
paleogenesis from indianapolis is forgiven!
lasped christian
I was a devout christian at one time, then to coin a phrase i "stepped back and took a look at myself" upon discovering and devouring numerous philosopy books and teachings i came to a realization. My mentor anton La vey, showed me the true path. I consider myself a closet satanist, and open athiest, religion to me is a complete waste of time, but if makes you happy let it roll. However, I have to admit liking the band, it reminds me of switchfoot. I wasnt aware of its Christian affiliation until navigating...
? from ? is forgiven!
sin, sin, and more sin, why?
I need this confession. In James 5 it says that confessing sins will bring healing, well I hope this works. I have a lot going on. I have a problem with porn and masturbation. I hate this. Every time I do it I feel dirty, and that I've hurt God again and again. I always ask for forgivness afterward but I don't know why I still do it. Please God help me!
Barclay from Indain Trail is forgiven!
Lust
The flesh is week, but the Holy Spirit is strong. I struggle with the temptations of lust, along with so many. God says to pray for/and with each other, to encourage one another, and together with Christ Jesus we will be strong. Though the fight is not always easy, God is always with us, "smiling down"! Thank you Pillar for your work in Christ.
Josiah from US is forgiven!
Masturbation
GOD, please help me in my fight with the pleasures of sin... cuz without ya.... im a goner
JJ the NayNay from Wherever is forgiven!
the musik in my head
I just want ask for prayer... The past couple of weeks i've been wrestling with my flesh on whether or not i should listen to secular music even though it's bad for me mentally and spiritually. My parents told me not to, my sisters told me not too. my church even told me not to. so thats why i'm askin for prayer. I continue to ask God and rely on his strength. just felt like this could some1 else and help them know they're not the only ones struggling with themselves
boss from texas is forgiven!
the
I hate these addictions to drugs alcohol and pornography they aren't helping me any and the temptations are so difficult to deal with. GOD I ask and pray that I may have your forgiveness for these sins I have committed. Help me keep my eyes focused on you and you alone and not the things of the world.
You don't know Me from Phil is forgiven!
Hatred!
I seems that i can't get over my X-girlfriend and it generated some sort of extreme hatred within my heart, it's been years but still i'm dwelling in the past. Good God please forgive me and please teach me to forgive Her.
anonymous from somewhere is forgiven!
I have sinned...
I have struggled with pornography and masturbration, and I hate both those sins, but for some reason I keep coming back to it. Please, Jesus, grant me the power to kick away those sins once and for all, and please forgive me for the many times I have sinned before.
Panthera from Texas is forgiven!
~Forgivness~
God you know my soul is laid bare before you, i can't hide from you. You know my struggles with infidelity & lust, left scars & stronghold territory in my mind open for attack from the enemy. I have struggled wit forgiving those who hurt me, but the one I have not been able to forgive is myself. Please heal my rage & self-loathing.
Panthera from Texas is forgiven!
~Forgivness~
God you know my soul is laid bare before you, i can't hide from you. You know my struggles with infidelity & lust, left scars & stronghold territory in my mind open for attack from the enemy. I have struggled wit forgiving those who hurt me, but the one I have not been able to forgive is myself. Please heal my rage & self-loathing.
Someone from Mexico is forgiven!
Love
Ive beenn this past 5 monthsss feeling God thanks to yoga... ( a path no t the only one for reeaching God) and i just founddd your banddd guyss i dont even remember and... the lyricsss are great they really get me i feel them just passing by to thank you for making thisss GREEATT workk not onlyy the lyrics are good the musiccc thanks for sharing :D kissess!! and alll of my loveee to u :D
Craig from Port Elizabeth is forgiven!
Life
I have been reading all the confessions and the one thing I have noticed is a lot of it is the same sin, so I wanted to share where I have come from. 4 years ago I went to Bible College and that is where I met my now ex wife, after a year we got married and that is basically when all the attacks started. Addiction to porn and masturbating became so big and I kept it a secret. The enemy made me feel so dirty and I saaw my confidence drop. I also got attacked on my sexuality and started have homo thought...
R from is forgiven!
My girlfriend broke with me
I´m lost the love of my life.. because i was fool.. i´m trying to get her love´s back.. it´s be hard to get.. but i have hope.. and i believe in the lord.. and i know that i´m a good person.. so please help me in this moment.. please forgive me
Danielle from Jeffersonville is forgiven!
Almost sex?
I have a purity ring. And not even 4 months after that, I got my first "serious", or so I thought, boyfriend. He was my first kiss, my first makeout session. And I let things get a LOT farther than I was supposed to. I let him touch me, finger me, suck on some body parts I shouldn't have. I didn't have the guts to tell him no. And after we would do that I would feel so dirty and ashamed. And one time we almost came VERY close to actually having sex, because I didn't have the courage to stop it. I've lied to ...
joshua from Deer Lake Newfoundland and labredour is forgiven!
fighting through the toughest times part 2
young person this is me again yesterday i rote alot of things and theres some things i whant you to know theres this song that really spoke to me its called small to say from thousand foot krutch lyrics corressed by the wings you've given me beautifully delivered me i tried so hard to keep looking at you to stand strong beneath the dirt that i have thrown at you they seeds you've sown have grown into bloodline and my veins will too and i want you and my trust has been so broken anf i need you to step inside ...
joshua from Deer Lake newfoundland and labredour is forgiven!
fighting through the toughest times
people um this is my life and advice to you young person im 19 years old i was born in fort mcmurry when i was a child me and mom left my father in edmonton he did come back but mom whanted a divorce so they did now on the way to halifax by the time we where supose to land we had to go back to toronto and where left out side in the snow storm for a day and now as months whent by mom met another man who abused me and mom and pushed both of us dow a flight of stairs and treated us like garbage and so one day m...
GODKnowsWhoIAm from Kentucky is forgiven!
Everything against me
I am currently going through a barrage of spiritual attacks.I am a married man and I dont treat my wife the way I should,I cuss her out at times and I am very mean to her at times. My prayer life/church life is relatively non existent and I have a new found problem of looking up pornography and masterbating. I am disgusted and ashamed of this along with many other things. I need serious prayer and fellow believers to raise me up.It is my fault and I know this, I should never have allowed Satan to get such a ...
Me from Castle Rock is forgiven!
You all must read this!!!
If you have problems with porn plz try to look at them you love your girlfriend your mother or father it will help you so much trust me it helped me god bless you
Me from Castle Rock is forgiven!
You all must read this!!!
If you have problems with porn plz try to look at them you love your girlfriend your mother or father it will help you so much trust me it helped me god bless you
Me from Castle Rock is forgiven!
You all must read this!!!
If you have problems with porn plz try to look at them you love your girlfriend your mother or father it will help you so much trust me it helped me god bless you
Emily from 38233 is forgiven!
Lying
I have been lying to my parents here lately about my grades in school. I told them it was because I have missed so much and they haven't got all my grades averaged in. And that is true but what i haven't told them is I have failed the last couple of assignments I've had. I started prayin last night and it is like god ain't listening to me but no matter what I know he is listening and I pray he would help me.
RJ from New Egypt is forgiven!
my dirty sin
I am 17 years old, and for three years I have been dealing with sexual addiction. I was saved a year ago, but I still struggle with this. I'm having a hard time keeping faith that I am saved because of this sin, and just wanted to confess it before anyone reading. God bless
RJ from New Egypt is forgiven!
my dirty sin
I am 17 years old, and for three years I have been dealing with sexual addiction. I was saved a year ago, but I still struggle with this. I'm having a hard time keeping faith that I am saved because of this sin, and just wanted to confess it before anyone reading. God bless
GREG from BIRMINGHAM,ALA is forgiven!
TRYING TO FIND THE MUSIC
I JUST STARTED REALY TAKING GOD INTO MY LIFE; I PLAYED MUSIC IN A "PUNK/GRUNGE BAND FOR MOST OF MY HIGHSCOOL DAYS AND NOW IM TRYING TO START A NEW BAND.FOR THE LOVE OF GOD WHO HAS BLESSED ME WITH TALENT. JUST LOOKING AT YOUR WEBSITE AND SAW THAT YALL HAVE MUCH TALENT. PEOPLE HAVE TURNED ME ONTO SOME GOOD CHRISTIAN MUSIC SUCHAS YOU GUYS. I HAVE NO CHURCH TO PLAY AT OR ANY FRIENDS HERE IN BIRMINGHAM,ALABAMA. JUST TRYING TO GET IT STARTED UP...THANKS FOR THE GREAT MUSIC ....MUCH LOVE!!
Matt from Pensacola is forgiven!
confession
I have been looking at pornography....Jesus I love You and I dont want to do this anymore, please forgive me!
sir from seattle is forgiven!
selfishness
God. lately I've been focused on myself and not you please forgive me. I've had lust and greed and its uncaontrollable.
Nathan from Utica is forgiven!
Wherever the wind blows...
...you will find me there standing exactly where i want to be. Lord...I have had all sorts of addictions. I have made certain mistakes over and over again. I keep falling into the same traps and each and every time i hit rock bottom, i decide i'm going to re-dedicate myself to you god. And it works for whatever small period of time...and then i fall right back into the same traps. Don't get me wrong, i don't consider myself a bad or negative person...however i do know that i could be a better and mor...
Nathan from Utica is forgiven!
Wherever the wind blows...
...you will find me there standing exactly where i want to be. Lord...I have had all sorts of addictions. I have made certain mistakes over and over again. I keep falling into the same traps and each and every time i hit rock bottom, i decide i'm going to re-dedicate myself to you god. And it works for whatever small period of time...and then i fall right back into the same traps. Don't get me wrong, i don't consider myself a bad or negative person...however i do know that i could be a better and mor...
Nathan from Utica is forgiven!
Wherever the wind blows...
...you will find me there standing exactly where i want to be. Lord...I have had all sorts of addictions. I have made certain mistakes over and over again. I keep falling into the same traps and each and every time i hit rock bottom, i decide i'm going to re-dedicate myself to you god. And it works for whatever small period of time...and then i fall right back into the same traps. Don't get me wrong, i don't consider myself a bad or negative person...however i do know that i could be a better and mor...
Preacher man from North Carolina is forgiven!
To all that struggle with lust! READ THIS!!
Lust is a everyday battle even as a man of God or a up and coming Pastor. Your flesh always wants to lust the desire will always be there in the FLESH! But you have a spirit that is strong!!! U must feed it everyday with the word and prayer and your Spirit will raise up and defeat your flesh and then some!!! Jesus said the flesh is weak but the Spirit is willing! Willing to over come it and WIN!!! Pray and get in the word. In the word God will speak to U. Show you things! Heal your mind and defeat your flesh...
hugo from mexico is forgiven!
confession
this is my confession, I have problems with lust, pornography, masturbation is what makes me angry and upset with me, God I want to be free of this, I need you please save me
from is forgiven!
Pray for me
I am so ashamed. God has given me a very special gift, my voice. I want to live for him. I am struggling with lust. I ask for your prayers that God would have my eyes, my tongue, my voice, my body, and my soul. To use it for his glory. Please pray for me.
Robin from Apeldoorn, Netherlands is forgiven!
*Not a confession*
Hail! Sorry for sending my message to you this way; but there's a failt in the tour section of the site. The 4/9/2010 concert in 'The Shelter' in The Netherlands is not in the city if 'Haarlem', but in the city of 'Amersfoort'. Thought it ought to tell you! Keep rockin'!
Melanie from Manhattan is forgiven!
Stroke at 19
I am so sorry, this is not a confession, but I could not find anywhere else to post this. However, I have had a difficult time dealing with the effects of the stroke and sometimes it causes me to stumble in my relationship with God. Pillar My brother loves listening to your music. It gets him really pumped up for wrestling and cross country seasons. His favorite song is “Let me hear your Battlecry”. That is my favorite as well and became favorite after you all played for Acquire the Fire a few years ...
Matt from Melbourne, Victoria is forgiven!
Lust Looses Life
Lust has been a major problem for me since before I found god 2 years ago. It just seems to be all around me. I try to resist but I find it hard. Sometimes I won't even think about it, other time I can think about nothing but lustful thoughts.
Matt from Melbourne, Victoria is forgiven!
Lust Looses Life
Lust has been a major problem for me since before I found god 2 years ago. It just seems to be all around me. I try to resist but I find it hard. Sometimes I won't even think about it, other time I can think about nothing but lustful thoughts.
Anna from Alabama is forgiven!
hate
My church has recently been going through some really hard times. Many people that i respected and trusted have let me down big time. So much that i doubt their faith. So many people in the youth group at my church have been hurt by this.(i am more broken for them than i am my own hurt). I have grown to dislike my church. the one friend i had at church turned her back and changed churches. I am a faithful christian (God has recently called me into the music ministry so...be praying for that also) but it seem...
Karlo from Samobor, Croatia is forgiven!
Can't Stop
I can't help myself... I am too aggresive... I think after I do something stupid... I pray to God so He can forgive me and help me so I can tame beast inside of me...
marie from kansas city is forgiven!
confession
I was tempted by severe lust on a social network and had a virtual love encounter with a stranger. Oh be so careful, all that glitters is not gold. You may think you are strong enough to resist, but humans are fragile. We have to have Gods strength to resist and the stronger in faith you get is seems the devil really pumps up the volume on temptations.
christian from winnebago is forgiven!
this is it
dear lord jesus, here i am, on a school computer, anyone can be watching, so here it is. im going to confess this in front of whoever see's it just because im sick of being ashamed of it, of lieing about it to my friends, of telling myself its ok if i dont marry or have a girlfriend while i do it... dear lord jesus, i confess my sin of masturbation to you.
Shay from Denver is forgiven!
my confession
i've been struggling with mastribation, and it kills me every time. i feel like i'm letting God down like a slap in the face to him. i've been wanting to tell someone but i'm afraid of what they will think of me. this is my confession. prayers would be appreciated, thank you so much everyone
Preston from SA is forgiven!
God would you take this from me...
Im so tired of commiting the same stupid lustffuk\l mistake god. I pray that you would break the shackles that continually bind me.-In your name amen
Michael from Hellertown is forgiven!
Seeking more.
29 years and all I did was run away from God and the Church. I his my fears at the bottom of empty liquor bottles or in the comforting numbness of drugs. I went so far away that I found myself hating more then God but my own life. I started going to a therapist recently to figure out my depression, and my life. God intervened and sent me a gift that I can not stop thanking him for. Yet I'm terrified that all the changes I have made won't matter when faced with the next challenge. I hated God. I hated ever...
Christiana from The Caribbean is forgiven!
I Want My Old Sef Back
I'm tired of everything. I'm tired of hating my life, tired of being mad at my friends and family, tired of wanting to vent but not doing it and letting everything build up on the inside. I'm tired of being tired. I've never done anything drastically wrong like watch bad things on the internet or give away my virginity or drink or do drugs or anything like that, and i thank God that I've never felt compelled to, but there is just so much hatred building up inside of me that shouldn't be there. I'm only a 14 ...
katherine from pontotoc is forgiven!
Disobedience
As I sit here and think of the things i should confess it has all boiled down to one very important thing, disobedience. Lord I know you are calling me, I'm not sure what it is your calling me to do but its like sometimes i dont want to know. I'm scared. I want you to be effective through me but its scary. I've built my life around routine and predictability. I've worked so hard to reach certain standards of living and to accomplish certain goals that I thought I needed to accomplish to consider myself su...
katherine from pontotoc is forgiven!
Disobedience
As I sit here and think of the things i should confess it has all boiled down to one very important thing, disobedience. Lord I know you are calling me, I'm not sure what it is your calling me to do but its like sometimes i dont want to know. I'm scared. I want you to be effective through me but its scary. I've built my life around routine and predictability. I've worked so hard to reach certain standards of living and to accomplish certain goals that I thought I needed to accomplish to consider myself su...
katherine from pontotoc is forgiven!
Disobedience
As I sit here and think of the things i should confess it has all boiled down to one very important thing, disobedience. Lord I know you are calling me, I'm not sure what it is your calling me to do but its like sometimes i dont want to know. I'm scared. I want you to be effective through me but its scary. I've built my life around routine and predictability. I've worked so hard to reach certain standards of living and to accomplish certain goals that I thought I needed to accomplish to consider myself su...
Naomi from United States is forgiven!
TRIED IT ALL
You name it, I've tried it. Sex, masturbating, cussing, running away, drinking, drugs, cutting, porn, suicidal thoughts, hating God, looking to guys for love, depression, starving myself, thought life. My name is Naomi and this is my confession. I'm the girl you see in Wal*Mart. The one that doesn't look happy, doesn't look sad. I look normal on the outside. But if you could see inside of me you'd see someone fighting just to stay alive. Fighting not to think about someone in the wrong way. I'm the ...
Nate from Cali is forgiven!
In A Fight
For everything I can be for Jesus. I have a problem with lust and porn that just wont die. No matter how I try it wont go. Today I give it over again to Jesus. Today I get back in the fight.I know I;m not the only one who struggles with this, and I know I have the one who has promised to make a way for me to escape any temptation. Jesus, set me free from this, and Point me to the Front lines for you. This is my Fight.
Christopher from Bullhead is forgiven!
Hate
I am here to tell you that about two years ago,I was full of hate from my past history in my life.When I was about eight years old I was abused(meaning that I was beaten with a belt buckle and bitten on my back)from my alcoholic stepfather(no longer in my life now),I also witnessed my mother(she was pregnant at the time) being beaten from this man which led to my sister being stillborn.This crushed me very much because my only sister I will never become the BIG protective brother I always wanted to be.So I h...
Luke from somewhere is forgiven!
Can't be who I want to be
I keep going too far. Porn, with my girlfriend, masturbation. It's all such a struggle. I try and try and try, yet I feel as though I'm swimming up stream the entire time. No matter how hard I fight, I make little to no progress, and once I give up because I'm so tired of fighting I get pushed down a river of mistakes. I feel as though I'm never going to be enough or right for my girlfriend. There is always a constant mistake, I feel as though I'll always feel like I'm not good enough. That's the best...
Katey from Normal is forgiven!
I'm Never Going Back
I too used to have a problem with pornography. I prayed to God he'd help me to get over it and to never have that temptation again. I soon got baptized and since then, haven't been tempted by such things. Praise God! God Bless.
Mary from Longview is forgiven!
Let Go
This is perhaps unusual... but I've been in love with the same guy (my best friend) for 3 years now, and have never told him. I've outright lied to everyone I know about it, and have allowed it to take over my mind and my heart and my relationship with God. It's making me bitter and angry every moment of every day, it's making me tempted to fall back into cutting, I can't sleep anymore, and I just want it to be surrendered. I don't want to keep building my life around this obsession, and I don't want to keep...
Charlotte from Zanesville is forgiven!
Thank You
I just wanted to say thank you to God because when I gave my life to him, new doors opened up. I got my GED and am now heading to college. Things I had given up and the cruelty to others that I had been dealing with were forgiven and blessed into a new light as the person I was really cruel to wound up being the one to get me motivated and all he did was forgive me and tell me that all I need to do was believe in God and let him in. That and your message in your album Confessions opened my heart once more so...
Joel from Canada is forgiven!
Problem with Pornography and Masturbation
I've struggled with porn and masturbation for a long time. Some days it's not in my mind and others I just can't help it and go roaming to catch a glimpse of porn. I'm sick of it and I want to change. Today I choose to truly repent from this sin.
Joel from Canada is forgiven!
Problem with Pornography and Masturbation
I've struggled with porn and masturbation for a long time. Some days it's not in my mind and others I just can't help it and go roaming to catch a glimpse of porn. I'm sick of it and I want to change. Today I choose to truly repent from this sin.
Sydney from is forgiven!
Hate
Dear God, I hate my brother. I can't stand being around him. He just makes it so easy! He's smoking and drinking and who knows what else, and I just....hate his guts. I know its wrong, I've prayed about it so long. I can't tell anybody because I'm ashamed. But I hate him. I don't want to be near him. Its gotten to the point where I don't want him to go to church with me, even though I know he needs to be there. Its wrong, and its sick, and its letting the Devil win. What do I do? He has ra...
Tanner from Chadron is forgiven!
Pornography and depression
I've been saved, and have been having a problem with Internet porn. I've thrown out all my porn within my house, but it is so easy to "accidently" end up on a pornographic site. I also know this might sound odd, but sometimes i'm addicted to being depressed, because of the "high" you feel when you come off of it. Sometimes i lie to myself to make myself depressed, giving Satan a foothold in my life, causing things to spiral out of control, then i recover, and feel as though it was suppose to happen. But in t...
Sean from Redding is forgiven!
I promised myself I'd never go there
Oh my gosh, I can't believe I just spent around two, two and a half hours lusting, looking up innapropriate pictures and videos, and having my first real look at "straight" porn .... People, please, please pray for me! God, please forgive me! Have mercy on me, a sinner--and the vilest kind. I can;t believe I looked at those women like that--I promised myself I would never look at women doing pornography! I promised myself that I would not, because that is what my dad does, and I do not want to be anythin...
joseph from bensenville is forgiven!
secerts and regrets
I am a person that use to love to look at porn. It messed up my relationships with my girlfriend and family i talked to my pastor about i feel that i am now overcoming it and have started to move on. I also tryed to cheat on my girlfriend she found out and i felt so dirty and unwanted but because of her love for christ and her love for me, me and her have work things out and r repairing our realtionship.
Somebody from Henderson is forgiven!
Two faced.
i have been in a christian home my entire life. i"was saved"at age 6,but i have been acting a christian until a few years ago. im still growing in god but not as i should because i have a problem with lust.i need it to stop because im trying to bring a friend to christ but i cant do that as well if im struggling with my sin. i know god is sad i have gotten this bad but i pray,with god's help, to get rid of my sin. -thank you pillar for your album confessions. it has impacted my life. your band is a great wi...
David from Quito is forgiven!
Lies
Hi Pillar, I recognize that one of my fights it´s not to lie, recently I kissed a girl who´s gonna be my girlfriend, but now she´s only my friend and I realized that it wasn´t in the correct time and I have not told to my leader about this.... because I´m afraid that my leader tell me to get separate from her I know she´s the God´s girl for me ´cause God talked to me about her but I did it in the incorrect time.... Thanks for your prayings....
Joy from Oklahoma is forgiven!
More than a Confession
The confessions tour came twice to Oklahoma and I never confessed anything. I could feel God telling me to but I didn't. That was almost a year ago. Now I can honestly confess and there's more to confess now then there would have been then. For nearly two years I've been a cutter. I almost ran away from home about three years ago. I nearly had sex in November (2009) and it takes a lot for me to talk about God. I was also suicidal and just two weeks ago nearly killed myself. For some reason God didn't w...
Joy from Oklahoma is forgiven!
More than a Confession
The confessions tour came twice to Oklahoma and I never confessed anything. I could feel God telling me to but I didn't. That was almost a year ago. Now I can honestly confess and there's more to confess now then there would have been then. For nearly two years I've been a cutter. I almost ran away from home about three years ago. I nearly had sex in November (2009) and it takes a lot for me to talk about God. I was also suicidal and just two weeks ago nearly killed myself. For some reason God didn't w...
Kelly from Topeka is forgiven!
Please forgive me Lord Jesus
Please forgive me Lord, my sins run deep and tragic. I ried to destroy my unborn child and thankfully I was unsuccessful. She is alive, happy and a teenager now. I was young and scared, I was alone. I did harm to her and I feel guilt every day of my life for what I did. She has an eye disorder that may have been caused by what I did when she was in the womb. I am distraught by what I did, I am remorseful and I am filled with regret. My daughter is a healthy happy well adjusted girl she is full of life and an...
Ben from Zanesville, OH is forgiven!
restored. engaged. ACTIVATED.
All my life I was raised in church. By my grandparents, and then my mom got in eventually. They were filled with the Holy Spirit. I was, a grump, basically. I hated church. I had NO interest in it whatsoever. But now I AM FREE. God filled me with his spirit at the apostolic church camp over the summer of 2009. I am now 14 gonna be 15 on the 7th of feb. thats this sunday. I never even thought God would use me. fill me. But he did. Now, for Jesus, I AM RESTORED. I AM ENGAGED. And I AM ACTIVATED to teach the wo...
Joshua from Belgium is forgiven!
Struggle
My struggle is that i have never truely felt that i belong. I have found that even in church groups that i cannot feel a sense of belonging. I want to change, but how its a process that I need help with. My confession is that I tell myself that I am not good enough to help those who need it or to be in a relationship with anyone who i like.
Alex from Newmarket, Ont is forgiven!
Cutting
When I was in grade 8 my life took a turn for the worst, my family was breaking apart from the in side and I felt like I couldn`t be seen by anyone, I felt alone and like I was nothing. 3 months into the school year I met a girl and I thought that I found the one for me, but after a year and nine months (grade nine) she left me for another guy, this made me forget about God and my family and I just gave up on my life. That summer I went to a christian camp, and for 3 weeks before camp I stopped cutting, but ...
noah from oxford wisconsin is forgiven!
bad things
I have looked at bad thins on the internet
Nate Johnson from Sylmar, CA is forgiven!
Pride
I have confessions. I have stories. But I also have the tendency to write forever on details, so I'll spare any reader that. Perhaps a more subtle, but no less dangerous sin, and one we all take for granted, is that of pride. Yes, I have had a porn problem, and I currently struggle with masturbation. I'm not unique in any sense from most other men on this planet. My lusts and desires are quite "normal", as one might put it. But I am perhaps most guilty of pride, which has often gotten in the way of my ro...
Mark from Columbia is forgiven!
Worry And Anxiety
I often worry about worldly, self- centered and compared- to- Spiritual matters, little issues, breaking the commandment in Mathew 6: 25- 34. Anxiety often leads to worrying, longing for Earthly things and wanting to put my direct desires above what's worth it and what God wants for me. This is my weakness I think of, when I ask the question "if I had to confess one moral, threatening weakness, what would it be?" I also have a couple of weaknesses in 1 that are hurting me recently: > Planning and imagining but not doing. >...
Raychel from Nairobi is forgiven!
Ms. Judgmental
I've been a Christian since forever. I try 2 live my life according 2 the word of God and although I have accumilated much peace and joy from my walk with Christ, I can't help but severely judge those around me who can't. I call them weak instead of praying earnestly 4 them. 4 all who have poured out their 'dirty little secrets' here, I'm switching from me-mode to God-mode from now on and will be praying 4 u. The devil is a liar people. Don't give up the good fight!
Jeff from Warren is forgiven!
Struggling
I am struggling,,,alcohol has it's grip on me and I am trying to break free. Alcohol triggers lying, deception, lust the sins that this chemical causes. I have recently been trying more to get on track..I know God will forgive me, yet I struggle to forgive myself.
Bob from Bloomington is forgiven!
My personal apostasy
I have recently found my way back to the Truth of Jesus Christ. While i have claimed to be a Christian for some years, i realize for most of these years i was trying to shape His message to fit my life rather than shape my life to make it a life worthwhile of His presence and Promises. Before trying to shape Him to fit me, there was a time when i claimed to be an atheist and even dabbled in other religions some of which are certainly satanic. I ask for forgiveness for the blasphemous things i said and did in...
nicholas from shreveport is forgiven!
alcohol
i have a problem with alcohol it like i want to drink really bad but i dont and i was worrying yall can help me
Carrie from Abilene, Texas is forgiven!
Inner Battles
All of my life I have looked for love and approval in the wrong places. I have constantly needed some kind of relationship to validate me. A few years ago, I got into a relationship, if you can even call it that, and as a result I now have 2 STDs. Saying this is hard in a forum as public as this. I struggle every day with the thought that I am dirty. I struggle every day to know that God loves me and has forgiven me. I worry about how these diseases affect my future. Will I ever find someone who loves...
nathan elizondo from dallas is forgiven!
no more.
i've been struggling with lust, pornography, and masterbation for too long already. i've gone periods of times where i don't do, or see a thing, but there's always that one time where i just fall apart. i love god, and for some reason, i just keep going back to my same old junk. there's so much stuff that i've seen, and some how they always seem to come and take over. i know i can overcome the temptation, but i still continue to do it. i know what i do is wrong. i'm taking away my intimacy for my future wife...
nathan elizondo from dallas is forgiven!
no more.
i've been struggling with lust, pornography, and masterbation for too long already. i've gone periods of times where i don't do, or see a thing, but there's always that one time where i just fall apart. i love god, and for some reason, i just keep going back to my same old junk. there's so much stuff that i've seen, and some how they always seem to come and take over. i know i can overcome the temptation, but i still continue to do it. i know what i do is wrong. i'm taking away my intimacy for my future wife...
Adam from El Paso is forgiven!
My Breaking Point
I have an addiction with lust and i have given in today however i remembered a quote by Michael Pearl that says when you give into lust such as masterbation or porn you stink of self and dont deserve a woman when i thought aboout that i felt dirty i remembered the girl that i really like and i thought i dont deserve her when i came to that realization i decided i wanted to turn my life around im ready for a change to be man that is deserving a man that is free not a slave to lust so today is my breaking point
Carol from Fort Smith is forgiven!
Anger
Mine isn't really an addiction but I have an anger issue. I have been through alot while growing up and have dealt with most of that but anger still gets the best of me. I have a daughter who I swear I will not pass this down to her. I am the one who can break the cycle I know that. It has been so hard to deal with the anger. The littlest things can set me off. I have tried for years to deal with this. I saw it growing up all the time and I want to stop. I have prayed and talked to God but it doesn't go away...
eric from branson is forgiven!
made to worship
my whole life i have been in church but it never was real. God has changed my life in the last 6 years and i have began to do what he has planed for my to do. although i started to compromise and God was still useing me. i asked him how this was possible. he showed me that he could use anyone. i went to a confessions concert in forsyth mo and you guys sang a song ( i wont go down with out a fight) and God said that if i can use you when you aren't totally commited than just imagine what i can do if you commi...
Brandon from Jacksonville is forgiven!
HELP WITH LUST
To all you out there struggling with LUST... Every guy struggles and we need help from God. Please do not give up the fight! I encourage everyone of you out there who needs encouragement to talk it out with someone you trust. Also, get ahold of a book called "Every Yound Man's Battle". This book has helped me a great deal in my battle. This battle is not impossible with God!
Matt from Hobart Tasmania is forgiven!
Falling
I keep Falling. I've broken up with my Girlfriend of 5 amazing years, she wasn't and doesn't want to have anything to do with God. It was Gods will for us to break up, this i do know, but it doesn't make things ant easier. I guess what I'm confessing is this, I still fall into temptation, lust and things of this world which shouldn't be needing (wanting). We're still close friends which is means heaps, but things get a bit out of control. I've tried so hard praying to get God to help, or to give it to Him.. ...
Sean from Redding is forgiven!
Lesbians and Hardcore Porn
Hi, it's me again, even after all I promised God this morning, I still missed some pieces that I "used" as loopholes, and I don't wanna be going back there again. Please pray for me if you see this, and if you've experienced trumph over anything in your life, please pray that your triumph becomes mine as well. I think this is a generational curse--my sperm donar is addicted to porn and who knows what else sexual and of the occult he has gotten into ... it may even go further up in the generations, to his f...
Ryan from Ottawa, Ontario is forgiven!
Porn and Masturbation
I have struggled with porn and masturbation since I was young. I want the problem to go away. God has called me into ministry. I would love to over come this so that it doesn't become my downfall like it already has before. I am on fire for God and want a life that glorifies Him.
Sean from Redding is forgiven!
Track of Lust to Porn
Oh God, I'm so sorry. Why have I discounted lust as a real sin until it led me to the point of pornography? Wh have I done this? Please give me you heart about lust, so that it repulses me as much as all the other sins in the world,and is no longer okay. Please forgive me, Jesus, the one who spilt your blood, and don't let that spilling be in vain. Please help me to not view it as something between me and the girl in the picture, but something that impacts my wife also, and how I relate to my sisters, a...
Alisha from Weslaco TX is forgiven!
FAITH
In the bible god tells us to have faith in him and we will overcome all of our problems, today i believe that he is going to heal my sisters suffering heart. I love my sister so much and I know that she will get through this situation. I just want to say that, The song"Frontline" has helped me go through the frontlines and fight this battle
John from Waterford, MI is forgiven!
Free Of Guilt
I'm a leader in my church, I have been riddled with guilt for a long time, it keeps me from feeling accepted and it feels like I'm off on my own. Pornography is the death of freedom for me, just when I feel I'm over it, it is right back in my face. We alone have no power to overcome this, though we strive, push, and try not to do these horrible things, they still find their way back into our lives. It's an addiction, much like alcoholism but more fierce, like someone addicted to crack. Though after reading s...
Rob from Verona is forgiven!
Can't stop
No matter how hard I try, I keep going back to viewing inappropriate things on the internet. I have tried and tried to stop but I can't. I am fine for a few weeks then I get overcome by the temptation and sin. I have turned to scripture and our Lord but I still do it. I am not sure how to stop.
John from Waterford, MI is forgiven!
Free Of Guilt
I'm a leader in my church, I have been riddled with guilt for a long time, it keeps me from feeling accepted and it feels like I'm off on my own. Pornography is the death of freedom for me, just when I feel I'm over it, it is right back in my face. We alone have no power to overcome this, though we strive, push, and try not to do these horrible things, they still find their way back into our lives. It's an addiction, much like alcoholism but more fierce, like someone addicted to crack. Though after reading s...
John from Waterford, MI is forgiven!
Free Of Guilt
I'm a leader in my church, I have been riddled with guilt for a long time, it keeps me from feeling accepted and it feels like I'm off on my own. Pornography is the death of freedom for me, just when I feel I'm over it, it is right back in my face. We alone have no power to overcome this, though we strive, push, and try not to do these horrible things, they still find their way back into our lives. It's an addiction, much like alcoholism but more fierce, like someone addicted to crack. Though after reading s...
Fernando from Honduras is forgiven!
My Dirty little Secret-....
Hi people around the world, yesterday i wouldn't believe that Today i would be able to tell my problem to alot of people i didn't even know, but now i know God is always behind me wathce over me. My problem is about porn and sex issues... i've got like one year since my first time but now i just want to stop because this is getting me away from God's Porpuse in my life... recently i have been quiting to al of that by sometimes i got to fall bac and that is just quitedepressing i feel like i betray God's Plan...
andrew from fort myers is forgiven!
gettin by and while not gettin high
First off id like to say thank you so much for your music.I have had a hard time stayin clean and instead of goin out with my freinds and burnin, I can stay home and jam out to your music. It is uplifting and inspiring, this road to being clean is a long and harsh one, however your music makes it alot easier to walk down it. thank you sooo much
acon from fargo is forgiven!
Mistake
Earlier this year i had a problem with my friend and it got out of hand and now we arent friends anymore because of me. God please forgive me and help my friend
Nate from Somewhere is forgiven!
Addiction
I've been struggling alot with lust and porn for the past couple of years. It consumed me to the point where i almoast lost my life to scuicide. 2 times. The clouds are now breaking and im on the Frontline, where i belong... And i will not be broken because by the grace and love of Jesus Christ I am Fireproof! \,,/
Kelly Briceño from Caracas- Venezuela is forgiven!
Not more diabolical rock
Chicos, debo superar mi anhelo de escuchar rock donde se adore al diablo y sea perturbación para mis oidos, pero debo reconocer que me hace volar y entregar mis energías y fuerzas al excitarme con su música por ejemplo Breaklin Benjamin y ahora Shinedown, pero ustedes son una salida musical, gracias de corazón por tener mi estilo y ayudarme con sus buenas letras... Diaculpen que escriba en español, no sé hablar inglés, pero las cosas de Dios las entiendo y ésta es una de ellas... Bendiciones..Dios me ayude
Alannah from calgary is forgiven!
Painful not so secrets
i grow up in a christian home that isn't so christian like anymore. We used to go to church every Sunday and spend time together as a family. Now, we all stay away from eachother and I'm the only one that goes to church. My brother (19) is an alcholic and my sister (15) smokes weed everyday. I have so many things going wrong. I smoke and drink any chance I get. I starve myself and make myself throw up after the times that I do eat. I cut and burn myself. I've attempted suicide so many times and my mom thinks...
Alannah from Calgary is forgiven!
Scars and memories
Dear God , I'm fighting everyday to stay alive . I'm crying on the outside , dying on the inside . Everytime someone hurts me , everytime something goes wrong I take it out on my body . I slash it and burn it . I even stabbed my leg to see if it hurt as much as a broken heart . It couldn't even compare . Nothing can match my pain . I put on a mask for everyone and pretend I'm okay , but I'm not . I wanna feel alive again , without having to cut , or burn , or purge , or starve myself . Lord , please hear m...
PETER from Bogotá D.C. is forgiven!
FANATIC
confieso ke soy fanatico a morir del metal y la idea con unos amigos es crear el slipknot pero cristiano hacerle la lucha al enemigo y confieso ke ke paso con lester stelle jr por ke cambiaron de baterista lester stelle jr toca mucho mejor tiene mejor ponch
James from Olive Branch is forgiven!
Lasting Impressions
I am 15 years old, and have been addicted to pornography for the past five years. I am the Chaplain of my freshman class and an active member of my church. I have been trying to quit for years, but every time I do it just gets worse. I try turning to the Lord and Scripture for help, but... like i said, I'm addicted. I want to stop so badly, for I know how this will hinder my relationships with other people, especially my future wife. I am lost without hope. I accepted Christ as my Lord and my Rock, yet I sti...
Joel from Saint Paul is forgiven!
1 John 1:9
I have been addicted pornography all my life and becoming more consciously about how to stop was very difficult. I had a couple of brothers from my fellowship (church) that would visit where I work and ask me how I am and they pray over me before they leave. I was able to bring this problem to them (into the light) and see my pastor. During that time, Jesus Christ shown me the scripture to help me with recovery. He showed me 1 John 1:9 where it says: "If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgiv...
Brother in Christ from NC is forgiven!
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Jim from Denver is forgiven!
Confession
I have lived with this for to long. My Confession is that i listen to self-righteous christian rock and think in lieu of actually being a christian. I often find myself hanging out with the same type of people in my high school casting judgment on those around me and then consider myself more pious simply because i listen to obscenely bad self serving musicians frantically attempt to mimic whatever they think is 'hip' in a vain attempt to add relevance to their iron age creation myth.
Garth from Peoria is forgiven!
Same Sex Attraction
I have struggled with feelings toward the same sex for most of my life and came out of homosexual lifestyle in 2002. Since then there have been the occassional falls and recently the use of online pornography. I am not proud of it but would like this confession to be one of a broken and contrite heart so that I can turn from this and not go back to it, ever. I would really just like increased freedom in this area of my life so I am not a dog returning to its vomit. Please God give me strength in this area so...
Alley from Colorado is forgiven!
My Garbage
Lord, please forgive me for my lifestyle and rebellion. The sexual sin, lust, perversion, anger, hatered, bitterness, resentment, unforgiveness, self pity, complacency, and just plain laziness. Please help me. Even my willingness to change and start walking right is lacking. I know its all a stench in your nose. Please help me to change. I don't want to be rejected on that Day! I'm tired of walking around in embarassment, and humiliation! And I'm tired of all the rejection I recieve from others because of my...
Justin Cleaver from Waxahachie, Tx is forgiven!
Addiction to Pornography
Hey guys. My name is Justin Cleaver. I'm 20 years old. I'm from Waxahachie, Tx, but currently a student at Texas A&M University. I've been a major fan of your music and I applaud you for this ministry. I wanted to contribute to it by saying I've been battling my addiction to pornography for the past 7 years. I've been trying to overcome this addiction for years, and I feel like I'm on the right path for recovery. Thank you so much for "Confessions", it's an amazing heartfelt album, and to keep up God's work....
Jerid from Winfield is forgiven!
Addiction
I too have been struggling with addiction to porn and masturbation. I really never had to face my addiction until I married my wife and she brought it out to the light. It was not a fun experience, especially since I had been lying to her about it. Understand this is a sin that does not damage you only, but your family, friends, and most importantly God. I would like to suggest a book I am reading that has helped me to work on breaking the addiction. It is very in-your-face and tells it like it is. I h...
from is forgiven!
My Confession
I have been struggling with self-esteem for a while. I always talk down to myself, and I can't seem to stop, i am getting better at stopping thanks to the love and support of God shown through my friends.
Brandon from is forgiven!
Sorry God!
For letting my eyes wander where they shouldn't...
Tyler from Vancouver BC Canada is forgiven!
Back sliding
I recently returned from a 6 month YWAM discipleship taining school and have found myself right back at the point which I left, if not further. I am right back into the same addictions and lustfull behaviours that I tried to leave behind. Im sick of all this and I need You Lord more than ever. I need You to come beside and help me lift myself out of this hole that Ive found myself back in.
Tyler from Vancouver BC Canada is forgiven!
Back sliding
I recently returned from a 6 month YWAM discipleship taining school and have found myself right back at the point which I left, if not further. I am right back into the same addictions and lustfull behaviours that I tried to leave behind. Im sick of all this and I need You Lord more than ever. I need You to come beside and help me lift myself out of this hole that Ive found myself back in.
J. B. from Chestertown is forgiven!
Dragged down by Lust
I have had a porn problem off and on for the last 10-11 months. There was some hard stuff going on in my life when I started. Instead of turning to God, I turned to porn. Every time I looked at it I felt sick. Recently I have been trying to quit and got really down on myself. Just reading other people's stories lifted my spirits. Unfortunately, I have now permanently damaged my heart, mind, and purity. I haven't looked at the stuff in a month now. I still have lustful thoughts, but not as frequently....
Brad from Chicago is forgiven!
My Confession
I have been struggling with porn and masturbation for a couple years. God has blessed me with so much in life and I feel like when I sin, I'm slapping Him in the face. By reading other confessions I know that I'm not alone in this and God has a plan for it to stop... RIGHT NOW, I promise you all. Thanks in advance for your prayers and I will be praying for others who post on here.
Brad from Chicago is forgiven!
My Confession
I have been struggling with porn and masturbation for a couple years. God has blessed me with so much in life and I feel like when I sin, I'm slapping Him in the face. By reading other confessions I know that I'm not alone in this and God has a plan for it to stop... RIGHT NOW, I promise you all. Thanks in advance for your prayers and I will be praying for others who post on here.
Brad from Chicago is forgiven!
My Confession
I have been struggling with porn and masturbation for a couple years. God has blessed me with so much in life and I feel like when I sin, I'm slapping Him in the face. By reading other confessions I know that I'm not alone in this and God has a plan for it to stop... RIGHT NOW, I promise you all. Thanks in advance for your prayers and I will be praying for others who post on here.
Brad from Chicago is forgiven!
My Confession
I have been struggling with porn and masturbation for a couple years. God has blessed me with so much in life and I feel like when I sin, I'm slapping Him in the face. By reading other confessions I know that I'm not alone in this and God has a plan for it to stop... RIGHT NOW, I promise you all. Thanks in advance for your prayers and I will be praying for others who post on here.
Brad from Chicago is forgiven!
My Confession
I have been struggling with porn and masturbation for a couple years. God has blessed me with so much in life and I feel like when I sin, I'm slapping Him in the face. By reading other confessions I know that I'm not alone in this and God has a plan for it to stop... RIGHT NOW, I promise you all. Thanks in advance for your prayers and I will be praying for others who post on here.
Brad from Chicago is forgiven!
My Confession
I have been struggling with porn and masturbation for a couple years. God has blessed me with so much in life and I feel like when I sin, I'm slapping Him in the face. By reading other confessions I know that I'm not alone in this and God has a plan for it to stop... RIGHT NOW, I promise you all. Thanks in advance for your prayers and I will be praying for others who post on here.
Flex from Roanoke is forgiven!
Lust
I have been trying to figure out a way to get over my lust and temptation. The truth, be told I never tried to go against it, didn't resist it at all. Every time it happened, I would feel really guilty and then go back to the same old scenario. I hoped that God would help me out in this matter, but thats all I ever did. Never really took any initiation from my side, never made any honest effort. Just kept on lying and convincing myself that it wouldn't happen again. But for something to stop, one has to real...
Anonymous from Oshawa Ontario is forgiven!
Porn Addiction
For a long time I've struggled on the inside with this addiction to porn and lust...it isn't something I like to talk about, but...I feel as though I need to talk to someone about it....that is...if any ones willing to listen. I've always kept this addiction to myself and have suffered the burden of carrying this on my own...the guilt,shame and temptation of it constantly consumes my mind, I would always pray, confess and repent of my sins constantly to god about this same thing over and over again, but each...
Terry from Grass Lake is forgiven!
an on going battle
I've been saved for 3 years I came from a 25 year bar band.I was the first of three members to saved. We ran rite out after God in that seen. I know now that was'nt the best thing to do. I'm know at point of being stripped and broken . I've never been at this place in my life before. I have always played music for 33years . I have faith and love for God.I feel like I'm in a holding pattern awaiting marching orders.I've always been a man of action. please lord help with the waiting ???
Eshter from China is forgiven!
lust/masturbation
I have struggled with masturbation for more than 19 years since the Lord found me. It seems an endless cycle of sin confess time and again. I know that Christ has forgiven me completely 1 John 1:9 and that by his wounds i have been healed but at times it seems so hopeless that i never seem to conquer it. But i know that we are more than conquerers through him who loved us.
Aaron from Axtell is forgiven!
Bad Choices
I have made bad choices. I have caused pain for others that i know is a life lasting scar. I have not been the person i should have been, the Christian i need to be. Im convinced that Jesus' blood has covered all. this is my Confession. Jesus has saved me.
Gus from San Antonio is forgiven!
Hell in the Midst of Heaven
About 4 months ago, I began a relationship with one of the best friends i've ever had in my life, the biggest blessing i've ever had! she is the most amazing woman of God that i have ever met! we've been going strong ever since, even growing in the church together, participating in numerous ministries. Unfortunately, lately we've been fighting with lust, and it feels like we're losing, constantly trying to better our walk together, but sadly we keep falling, i dont want our relationship to turn into anoth...
Rachel from Austin is forgiven!
Food
I have a eating probmle and I need help.
kevin from Costa Rica, Cartago is forgiven!
Never Alone
I do not understand at times what I do There is much evidence to be overcome but it is very difficult because you try to be good but at some point you miss a problem for the head and forgets who God is .. and therein lies the point .. What must we do when something's head? it all comes down .. God will ever need in my life, forgive me. You're the one who controls your life and you know "which way I'll give you your head up my" Help me God .. thanks for music makes him one break down and it does reflect in...
Ty from Baltimore is forgiven!
Lying
I've been lying about like everything for what seems like forever. School, out with my friends, to my parents, whatever. A lot of it is stuff like those stupid half-truths when it's so easy to convince yourself that your not really lying. I've tied myself into all kinds of knots with this and can't seem to be free. I want to more than anything!
Johan from is forgiven!
Addiction
In my head, there's a battle going on. It's a war between my feelings and my mind. My feelings say 'yes' but my mind says 'no' I'm talking about Sexuality/porn. I want to live pure, and I made that dicision a few times. But It's very hard to hold on. I feel so weak. But I know God knows everything about me. He sees me, and He can look into my heart. He knows where I'm going through. He knows I'm trying hard to hold on. I got friends who know about my problem, and they encourages me. I'm glad about t...
Danielle from Columbia is forgiven!
I've Had Enough!
I've been tormented by lust and temptation... all because of something I did a while a go. I'm so sick of being a slave to it, all I want is out and to be able to easily hand it to God and be done with it. But it's only bringing me down and I've had enough of it!
Danielle from Columbia is forgiven!
I've Had Enough!
I've been tormented by lust and temptation... all because of something I did a while a go. I'm so sick of being a slave to it, all I want is out and to be able to easily hand it to God and be done with it. But it's only bringing me down and I've had enough of it!
Bruce from Phoenix is forgiven!
Poor Judgement
Oops, please forgive me for trying to post a Thanksgiving Testimonial on the confessional. I'll try to find an appropriate place on Pillar's website.
Bruce from Phoenix, Arizona is forgiven!
Thanksgiving Testimonial
Yesterday on Thanksgiving I was called to do street evangelism, where God led me to Jennifer suffering at a bus stop. This poor homeless woman, maybe 30ish, was barefoot in a tattered dress and had a small purse, and a baby stroller with a stuffed bear, some candy bars, and a bottle of perfume, her only possessions. I explained that I was not there for sinful reasons, instead, God led me to her to help her because he loves her. She got uneasy when I asked her if she believed in God, so I told her it was o...
Goliath from Gresham is forgiven!
Done and Gone
What people don't understand is that pornagraphy, above drugs above drinking, is the hardest addiction(at least for men) to get rid of. it ruins your view of women and causes you to defile yourself, I know, I've been there. I've done all of the rotten things that comes with it, pre-marital sex, masterbation, all of that, but after i got married and got my calling into youth ministry I realized that it wasn't worth my efforts I'm not saying it was easy or it was done just like that, but it takes a total relie...
jay from new england is forgiven!
dreams
i keep having dreams about me making bad choices and doing sinful things but it scares me because i don't feel that way when i am awake
Jeremy from NC is forgiven!
Chains and Weights
For the past year I have struggled with lust and masturbation. I've tried to quit and always tell myself that 'this time is the last time,' but I keep failing. Right now I'm trying to quit again. Please pray for me and others going through this. I love You, Lord, and just want to do Your will. Thank you pillar and others involved with this site; it's helped me see I need this out of my life and I'm not alone.
D. from Recife is forgiven!
sometimes I don't believe
Sometimes I think life is unfair, and I think God is there, and sees everything, but just don't care (...) I know this is a lie, but I always end up saying it. God, I'm goin' through a lot, please help me to keep my faith, and do the right thing.
amber from hamilton is forgiven!
horrible life
i have gone through so much in my life since childhood up til now. when i was 4 or 5 years old i was raped by a friend of mine and also was molestead by my mom uncle. i still carry those scars with me forever. ive tried commiting suicide(4 times), drinking and cutting. even though ive learned to let that go i still have problems. i also have been abused some what physically, emotionally, and psycologically by my dad and have never been able to reconnect with my dad. but despite all of this ive learned that t...
Melissa from Allendale is forgiven!
temptation that turned into an action
I had a temptation to cut, a temptation to commit suicide. This temptaion did turn into an action, I did start to cut. I did it for a while, but something told me to stop, it was my friends, and I felt God was telling me to stop as well. I felt his hand on my shoulder, but really it was my friends. I felt God through them.