As I sit here and think of the things i should confess it has all boiled down to one very important thing, disobedience. Lord I know you are calling me, I'm not sure what it is your calling me to do but its like sometimes i dont want to know. I'm scared. I want you to be effective through me but its scary. I've built my life around routine and predictability. I've worked so hard to reach certain standards of living and to accomplish certain goals that I thought I needed to accomplish to consider myself sucessful. I've worked very dilligently on accomplishing these things but I dont work dilligently on my relationship with you. Not only that but I let so many other things come in between us, like anger, procrastination, and gossip. Lord forgive me of these sins and help me to see the things that I do that hinder my effectiveness. Lord I want to be used by you. I want to be a great leader and witness to my children and everyone i meet. Lord please work through me. I love you Lord