Oh my gosh, I can't believe I just spent around two, two and a half hours lusting, looking up innapropriate pictures and videos, and having my first real look at "straight" porn .... People, please, please pray for me! God, please forgive me! Have mercy on me, a sinner--and the vilest kind. I can;t believe I looked at those women like that--I promised myself I would never look at women doing pornography! I promised myself that I would not, because that is what my dad does, and I do not want to be anything like him. God, please make me pure again, mentally a virgin, white and innocent as a dove! PLEASE!!! Please forgivce me. Thank you for loving me still, dying for me while I was still sinnning, and for meeting me while I am still a long way off, Father. Please help me to connect and be honest. Please make me strong. I love you, Father. I am so sorry, my wife--I am so sorry. Please forgive me, as God makes me new, and strong.