When I was in grade 8 my life took a turn for the worst, my family was breaking apart from the in side and I felt like I couldn`t be seen by anyone, I felt alone and like I was nothing. 3 months into the school year I met a girl and I thought that I found the one for me, but after a year and nine months (grade nine) she left me for another guy, this made me forget about God and my family and I just gave up on my life. That summer I went to a christian camp, and for 3 weeks before camp I stopped cutting, but at camp I couldn`t hold off anymore because I felt like I was being seen for what I was, and three days into the week at camp I desided that life wasn`t worth it anymore, so I attempted to commit suicside for the first time. As the year went on I just couldn`t take it anymore, everyday I would cut and just leave myself to bleed, and everytime I felt further from God, and further from everything that I cared about, at that time was go betwen girls like they were nothing, in the years from grade nine to grade ten I had 4 different girlfriends, each of them left me for other guys, and everytime I just wanted to die. In 2009 in my grade 10 year I met a girl that was in the same possition that I was in, and when I felt like I wasn`t good enough for her, so I started cutting, but as well I found a girl that seemed to love me even though I was with a girl already, and so I deside that I would leave my girlfriend and tell her that I found someone else, and when I told her she was totally devistated and she gave up on herself and the more that I saw her I knew that I made the worst disision in my life, and that was when I left her. A few months later I finally saw what I needed, I turned to God, and saw my life in a new light, and I saw who I needed to be with, my real girlfriend. And so I asked her for one more chance, and she gave me that chance, and so I started to live my life for God, my family, and for God, and so now in Febuary 2010 it has been 2 months since I cut for the last time, and so far I have felt like I truly need God to live my life. Thank God.